I AM fresh from a massive psychedelic experience and at this time I would like to document it as accurately as I can. I must say I am thankful that I have regained the power over English again, I was afraid after the intensity of trip in an effort to keep me sane, my brain shut off the language portion indefinitely... first off I must express my goal, which was to experiment with new method of self perception using the popular i doser program. I have had some experience with binaural beats before and for me it works to varying degrees. The key to me is to keep relaxed and concentrate as fully as one can one sounds, letting thoughts go their natural way. I decided to go with the program's rendition of DMT, and also thought it best to embellish the process with three lung burning tokes of ground nutmeg, since there is already plenty in my system as it was, and it gave an marijuana like high immediately because of this. I also decided prior to listening to the program to perform 10 light pranayamas that relaxed me much further, and already by this time I was naturally exploring some of the more hidden rooms in my mind, mostly including scenes from defining moments in my childhood, I asked Mirma what this was about, and he simply said "it will solved", as if he already knew what was due to happen to me. I lit two dragon's blood incense sticks in a vanilla candle and all lights went to pitch black. I started listening.
The program is 35 minutes long but time quickly disappeared as I started some pranyama while listening in. At first I slipped into dreamlike fancies blissfully, almost into sleep, until everything was drained away into this black hole of a vacuum and I could see and feel my face cringe in horror and drugged like anguish with no pain. I immediately saw a dark galaxy swirling slowly, menacingly with dark reds and other colors I can't really describe, and I zoomed in. I can't remember what happened after that but I then became aware of the most odd looking entities checking me out in my room. They had tendrils all over and were right over me, also I saw three huge humanoid figures watching over me in a triangle, and I was the equivalent of shocked to whatever new rules I was abiding in. After becoming aware of this I was told the magnitude of the super complex civilizations without number that reside in me at the atomic and molecular levels who are just ambitious, and curious as anyone this earth. I was shown as this sleeping Cthulu with my face as a mountainside, sleeping, dreaming them and all their physics and existences, and I realized that we are just the same way. A number of other scenes due to their intensity I can't remember, but I was witness to one scene that included of my universe as a whole of mirrors staring back at me as I did various things, and me in the middle being the same way...The final scene I remember was me in a boat rowing peacefully in crystallized water with complex informational value I perceived in the moonlight, and I was told peacefully somehow that this was what it was like to be a god. I saw a few other characters and couldn't handle the complexity and simplicity and ascetically and ascendantly abundant power of our actions, yet I do remember that we looked a lot like the Hindu gods I've seen over the years. I got to see and FEEL what time itself looked like, and it is above any type of description that humans can muster right now. It felt like a liquid and mirror-like substance at the same time, and I was thinking about what I'd be like during the singularity, and as I was trying to merge with my future self, I perceived it was not possible, though I could definitely see what I was (am) going to go through, it was a very hard experience to retain.
Upon my return I instantly started to speak in some complex form of glossolalia, and I couldn't seem to move my body for several minuets. Afterwords I experienced some light hallucinations and still wasn't in complete control of my actions, but I recovered still fairly quickly. My mind is blown to say the least, and even though I would like to do it, the whole exercise should be used sparingly, it has a massive toll on the psychic energies and renders the person highly sensitive. Overall, I consider my experiment into the unknown a success, of which it produced plenty to ponder over.
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